Wednesday, July 25, 2012

In God's Hands


July 24

     Today was a hard day. Gracie and Evelin took Karla to Teguc to go see the judge. It was hard because I couldn’t really tell her goodbye, at least not without her becoming suspicious of what was going on. Gracie had her convinced that she was just going for a psychiatric appointment, but in reality she wasn’t coming back. The last thing she said to me before they left was, “tell Alejandro you love him”. She had also given me a bracelet yesterday out of nowhere, by then I already knew that she was going to be leaving, so you can just imagine how that didn’t make it any easier for me to see her go. Sometimes you just wish you could reach a person’s heart and see them change in an instant, but life is not that simple. Sometimes you also wish you had the power to rid them of all their pain and suffering, but only God can do that. It was really hard for Gracie and Evelin to leave her behind, from what I heard. I guess I’m glad that I wasn’t there, because I probably would have broken down in tears. She was literally begging them to not leave her there, but she has to face the consequences of her actions.

     My heart is sad and it breaks when I see Alejandro and think about how much she is going to miss him. No doubt, this is the best place for him and Gracie did say she would take him to visit her every now and then, but I imagine being separated will be a lot harder on her than it will be for him. August 1st is when we will know for sure if he gets to stay with her or if he stays here.

     One thing Gracie pointed out which was rather interesting but not so much of a surprise was that none of the girls or staff were sad or upset that Karla had left. It was as if they were in fact relieved that she was gone. Now that we don’t have to worry about her causing anymore trouble, maybe we can actually start moving forward with the other girls. I’m sad she is gone, but as I said the other day, she is in God’s hands and we just have to trust that He will somehow help her find her way out of the dark. Small seeds of light have been planted in her and I can’t wait to see the day when they bear fruit and her life becomes a testimony of God’s redeeming love…because of the hope we have in Christ, we do not expect the worst, but rather we hope and pray for the best, and exceedingly more.

     As for Alejandro, I’ll do exactly what Karla told me to do…I’ll tell him that I love him…and that she always will.

A comforting thought:

“Because our work is God’s work, and because He is ultimately responsible for the results, He gives us the freedom to leave it, to trust Him with it.”
-Doug Sherman and William Hendricks

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