Faith in the Unseen

August 3

      TGIF!! Another week is just about over. It didn’t go by as fast as the previous week did, but we’re getting there. Gracie left this morning for her weekend off in Choluteca. She’ll be gone till either Monday or Tuesday. Either way though, I’m just glad she gets to take a break and get some much needed rest. Solitude time is so so crucial in ministry and without it, it’s so easy to get burned out.

I enjoyed myself in the kitchen today. I got to cook another Filipino dish (giniling) and stir fried veggies, but get this…Asian food without soy sauce! Whaaaaaaat?!! I know right? Haha! We were out, but with a few spices here and there, it turned out pretty good.

     After lunch, I had class with the girls. This was actually only the 3^rd time I have been able to have this class with them (sex and the soul of a woman). The reason for that being, I alternate weeks with Beverly and there was also one weekend when the Alabama team was here, and another weekend that Gracie decided to call off all the classes. That being the case, I decided to take a different approach with the class and tried to make it more personal for them. So I formulated a list of about 8 questions for them to answer. Their responses would then be our focus of discussion for the class tomorrow. For the first half of the class things went pretty smooth because all they were doing was writing down the questions. Things got a little difficult though once they actually had to start answering the questions. They were saying that they either couldn’t understand the questions, or they didn’t have an answer, which for these questions you are bound to have some kind of answer because they are purely subjective. They were also being a bit rude to Evelin while we were trying to explain things to them, so we told them that they could either answer them now, or do it later, but they have to have them done for class tomorrow. At least now they can’t say they didn’t have time to do their homework.

      Jen and I were talking about how neither of us had the motivation to continue with the classes. I know it sounds kind of selfish, because it’s not about us and how we feel about the classes, but then again, I still wonder sometimes if they’re really taking any of this stuff to heart. I know these classes are really difficult for them because they don’t like having to remember the things that happened to them, but for someone who really wants to heal, you would think that they would at least give it a chance. And I’m not saying the girls don’t try, because they sometimes do, but it’s hard to tell whether or not they’re really getting anything out of it. Sometimes I wish I could see what’s going on inside their head. I guess all of these concerns are the human side of me coming out, but my faith tells me that God is still working through all of this whether or not I can see it.